The reason I haven't updated in well over a month is because I've been going through pretty much the darkest period of my life.
I could get into specifics, but whenever I attempted to get it all out in writing in this session of blog therapy, it
a) got too long
and
b) made me feel like a whiny baby. Which I am, but that's not the point now, IS IT?
But the bottom line is that I've been hating, literally, everything lately. A bad case of anhedonia, if you will.
If you've ever been in a similar funk, what have you done to get out of it? Could it be depression? I do seem to be meeting a lot of the criteria for it: a bad mood lasting more than two weeks, weight gain, and not enjoying the things I used to.
I spend most of my time fantasizing about just running off to New York City, with no plan of what I would do when I get there. Living on the streets? Fuck, at least I'd have some stories to tell. Regardless, I need to get out of this house, out of this town, out of this life.
That was corny.

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