I need counseling. Serious serious counseling. I was talking to Joe, whos at UT, and reading Nikis(who is at USF) diary today and both of them suggest I move back down to Tampa and go to USF. Do you know why I'm not going to? Because I want to stay where Brian is. Do you know how insane that is? I mean, I'm willing to stay here, where I'm not as happy as I thought I'd be and where I'm far away from family and friends(or at least it feels like it) and I'm staying here for this guy. This guy who I barely talk to outside of class. This guy who I don't have a relationship wih, and who I probably never will. I am a PSYCHOPATH. I make myself sick. I mean, I looked down on people who would go to the college his/her boy/girlfriend was going to just because of them. And now LOOK AT ME! *sigh* Sometimes, I look in the mirror, and I say, "you have to be the most pathetic person that has ever lived." And then I go watch X-Files. lol I wish I was different. But then again, dont we all?

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